She opened her eyes.

But no one was there.

Anymore.

Her confused eyes looked around the room.

And she knew no one here.

Again.

She never knew why these illusions keep appeared in her life since she was a little girl.

She can’t be sure what was happened in her childhood.

The memory throws her into chaos.

Only thing she knew was the feeling of the nonexistent people.

The touch and kiss was very different with the one she was used to know.

She stared at him.

She knew him for months, but there was no feeling about him in her mind.

But, the only who knew this was her.

The music and romantic mood made everyone in that pub felt easy with time.

But, she just kept silence.

Silence as absolute zero.

For minutes.

He asked, and she answered.

Like an android.

‘Why you are so cold to anyone else?’

He asked.

But she didn’t reply.

‘Have you ever been closed with anyone?’

He asked again.

And she still kept unconscious silence.

He didn’t ask her any more questions.

They drunk in that deadly, coldly silence.

She wondered that, if there was any one who once in close to her.

None in her memory.

Must be someone with these feelings.

She was drunk.

When she back home, she can’t feel anything but the rotational world.

She fallen in her soft bed.

The rotational world disappeared. Instead, the illusion of touching.

However, she wasn’t care, at that moment.

And, again.

The gently touch on her face.

She opened her eyes.

Thought there wouldn’t be anyone.

When she turned her face to the windows, she saw him.

Only a second.

Counter light.

Only a blurred figure.

But she knew, it was him.

Her world was frozen.

She knew why that she still can feel his touch.

He was the one; she once closed to, and had been forgotten already.

She still misses him, so she can feel him around.

It was the most familiar feeling in this world.

She cried.

Cried out in pain.

She asked why.

That, he must leave her alone.

That, he erased these memories from her.

And again.

Nobody answered.

As nobody understood.

Everyone thought her was crazy.

Expect her.

I saw him.

She kept talking to people like this.

He leaves me alone.

They took her to hospital.

After a lot of examine.

Doctor had her film.

And sigh.

Her brain is damaged.

The illusion based on this damaged area.

Most patient only gets illusion of vision and hearing.

But her, her can feel these illusion.

I don’t have any ideal.

It must be a rare phenomenon.

Why people have these illusions?

Because the feel alone, and need help from else.

They create some, something with their fantasy.

But sometimes, the think they are true.

Too much sadness damaged themselves.

Too much loneness…

He kept talking.

But nobody was hearing.

As nobody asked.

Will you forgive me.
If I make easy way to let it go.
Will you forgive me.
if I forget the scars once were pain.
Will you forgive me.
if I can't see my whole life should be Joy.
Will you forgive me.
if I never turn to you.
Will you forgive me.
If I give up my life.
Will you forgive me...

Will you hold me tight?
if my life would be gone.
Will you see me.
At the end of happyness.
Will you think of me.
if I'll never be in you life again.
Will you call to me.
if I turn over and gone.

I can't see the light of hope.
Sun has gone to hidden for such a long time.
Time parts me to different pieces.
There no way to fix it into one again.
I miss the person once was here.
But loneliness and sadness always be there.
Desperation stop me to call for help.
I tired to call myself in a circle.
Life sometime is a helix.
Days are too long to take in my heart.

Catch me and get me.
Save me from the fatal volution.
Forget all my faults.
And hold me tight.
Keep my life filled with smiles.
Remain these sweet dreams in memory.
Don't walk through the door like that.
 
But.
You forget the forgiveness.
After all.

So.
Just.
Let me go.